Unsent Letter #1

Dear,

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry if I can't be strong for you.
I' sorry if I can't give you as much light as I can to pull you out of the darkness you are feeling.
I'm sorry if I'm too weak to carry the weight upon your heart and soul.
I'm sorry if I'm also in chaos to help you keep your life organized.
I'm sorry if I can't answer all of your questions because I also ask the same questions that you have.
I'm sorry if instead of smiling for you I also end up crying.

But don't worry.
Our Dad is there to do what we cannot do for each other.

He can be the Light in this darkness that we're in.
          He is the light.
He can carry our pain.
         Look at the cross.
He can give us peace.
         Remember how the sea became calm at His command?
He can give us answers.
         He is the answer.
He can give us joy.
         He is the only source of joy.


I know that you feel like dying even when you're living.

                     That's what I also feel every day when I wake up and when the day ends.

But,

Don't forget that He died so that we may live.

Don't ever ever forget that.
Always cling to that truth.


I know that sometimes you think that people just give you empty words and promises that will be broken at some point.


And I won't lie to you;
                         some people do.
Some.
Not all.

So please believe the best in people.
Believe that they do, deep in their heart, care and love you.

And please.

Believe in yourself too.

You're not what the lies in your mind tell you that you are.
You are loved.
Greatly loved.


Don't you dare say that you're not because you are.
Please don't forget the cross.
Please remember it as the child you would.

Don't forget to be you-- the child you.

Smile. Believe. Love.
With all your heart.

Because that's the you that I know and see.

Don't let the pressures of "adulting" take away you.

Dear?
           Go be a child.



Love,

A.N.Caelus