Unsent letter # 2

Someone,

You weren't a dear to me, but I always wanted to write a letter to you,
            
            someone whom I thought would be a dear to me.

Thank you.

For believing in me.
For bringing out a part of me that brings the best out of me.
I don't know if you know how much of a fearful person I am despite your image of me being strong and independent. 

Maybe you what brought you to notice me was that,
                 my strength hidden in fear and weakness.


Thank you.

For the conversations that stirred my mind.
For the dialogues and questions of mine that you entertained.
For the intellectual guidance that you freely gave to me.
For your hugs? (My memories are fading as I try to recall).


I thought that you would be a dear to me.
But no.

The last awkward hug that we had as you asked me the question that everybody always greeted me with said otherwise.

I thought that I would be a dear to you.
But no.

I was just someone.
   
                     Someone that you were curious about.

It's weird how I still think what could have happened if I stayed. 
But I'm still glad that I didn't.
Because if I did, then our friendship would be just imaginary. 

A friendship built on something that wouldn't last.


I hope that somehow, someway, I have planted a seed in your heart. 
I hope that it somehow grew and helped you in your search for the Lover of your soul.
I hope that you'll find Him too.


Thank you.
Please tell that to your person too.
He believed in me too.
I hope that both of you weren't disappointed when I left.

I'll admit that I had my regrets and frustrations with my decision. 

But I'm sorry.
My Home is somewhere else.
It's in Someone's presence.

So thank you but,

Good bye.



Sincerely,

A.N. Caelus